Didn't really get to finish fleshing out my thoughts on Sunday, but I have also discovered another problem. Communication. I guess after never being able to depend on someone, I have a tendency not to want to share info w/people. Insignifcant details to me, to others, things they think they need to know that I do not. For example. My friend T is staying with the girls while I am out of town. Yesterday I happened to find out from my oldest that she doesn't have practice on Monday, but I think she does. Then I just sorta forget about it besides telling myself to call and find out. I don't mention ths to NG. Today before my plane lands for my connection, I remember and I try to call the coach, no answer. I call T and give her the numbers and tell her to call. Later this eve when I'm talking to NG, he seems affronted that I didn't share this with him. His exact statement, "I feel like I was left out of the loop. This would have been good information to have." For what exactly??? The only reason I even brought it up is because I didn't want him to waste his time going to practice if they weren't going to be there. I know he is trying to be helpful, but I smell control freak. I don't know if that is me over reacting or what. It's just like I have this tendency to keep people in the dark for some reason (can you say control freak - takes one to know one right?) if I don't feel they have a need to know, perhaps it comes from being so secretive about my personal life and the fact that my mom/step dad were alcoholics and then the abuse from my XH. XBF used to feel the same way as NG, why don't I share more. It's like I have this need to protect myself by not being an open book. I've read about this some place but can't remember all the details. There are so many things I like about NG, but there are also a couple of red flags that I think I am glossing over in my mind. I'm just not sure yet about him. Time will tell I suppose.