Life is Short - Don't Waste It!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Be prepared for a vent fest. We're supposed to go camping this weekend. We were supposed to go to a place where they have a pool. Today I find out that the place has been changed to a place that doesn't have a pool, but they do have a swimming beach on a lake. Color me not happy. Why? Because I agreed to go to a place that had a pool and that's what I want dammit. Why does it matter so much? It doesn't really, but it does. Waaaaaaaaaaah. NG is really looking forward to the trip so when he told me the change in plans, I kept my dismay to myself (I know self-sabotage). He didn't change the plans, the people we are going with did. I sorta feel like telling him to go ahead and go with his son D and the girls can go if they want too, but I know he'll be hurt, even though last time we didn't really spend much time together so why should it matter? Which brings me to a whole 'nother issue - once again I'm starting to feel like I've been bait and switched. I remember making my views on things (kids, activities, life motto) pretty clear in the beginning and now I feel as if it's all being overwritten. Maybe I'm just hormonal. All I know is that I'm starting to feel a little managed and I don't like it - at all. Waaaaaaaaaaaaah. That's how I feel. Why are relationships always so difficult. Why don't people listen when I talk and if they don't like what they hear, go away instead of trying to change me and my views. Which I have to say some of the changes have been for the better (girls nutrition, behavior) so where does that leave me? Am I just a control freak?
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Have you considered writing down all the things you feel are being "managed" and then taking a look at it? Like look over the list and decide what is probably for the best to change, and then make notes to things that shouldn't be changed. Relationships aren't about changing the other person. You are the only one that can decide when you're going to change something about yourself. I'm sure hormones could be a part of it too :) but I still think that it would help a lot to take a good look at everything that you are feeling stressed about. You know?
You sound abit like my girlfriend, and you're not so much a control freak as just a person who is used to making her own way I think...
My GF has realized that it's worth compromising with me because we're such a good match, and I'm a really great guy (her words, not mine!). And NG did tell you the pool was gone, that's not his fault, so just go and have a good time anyway, ay? Roll with the flow I say. How's the pregancy going BTW?
Hey! Glad you found my blog and now I'm glad to have found yours. I'll look into that call recording thing; I think we're the same here....you have to tell the person they're being recorded! We'll see!
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