The stork will be visiting me in Nov. This has been confirmed by a medical doctor. Apparently, my conception date was around 2/5-2/9. I'm not sure when I began to suspect but whenever I did, I was in full panic mode. I thought I was done with the early years and now I'm going to go through it again? Will I lose my mind? This is going to ruin my vacation plans (selfish I know). What will work say? Are we ready for this? Can I handle this? I'm not ready! Help! Help! Help! Then I think of all those who want so much to have a baby and try so hard and I think why can't this happen to them? Why me? Why now? But all of that doesn't change the fact that I am having a baby. NG is ecstatic, which is a good thing because X never was really. I mean he was a little happy, but really, could've cared less. He never went to an appt, but he did do the Lamaze classes, which is hard to believe. As time has passed, I am getting more happy about it and less pessimistic, but I'd be lying if I said it's all sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes I'm happy about it, and sometimes I feel as if fate is having a good chuckle at the curve she's thrown me. I was very nervous about telling people, one because I feel at 38 I'm too old to be having a child, two because I'm not married yet. I was surprised at all the positive feedback I have to admit. It seems as if everyone thinks it is wonderful, which has helped a lot. I've told my parents, work and some friends. I have not announced it on FB or other social networking sites I participate in yet. I'm not sure why - I think I sort of feel embarrassed. Unwed mother at 38 and all. LOL Boy, did my small town baptist upbring stick. The girls are excited, which was surprising. Oldest is a little concerned that the baby will take all my attention, which is a valid concern, but I told her I would do my best to make special time for she and youngest. The truth is, I sort of felt the same way when youngest was born because I had just quit my job and went back to school, and it was messing up all my best laid plans, but it all turned out just fine and I know this will too, and I will end up thinking that it's the best thing that ever happened to me once the baby is here and I once again marvel that this is my little baby girl (yes, I'm predicting a girl, NG predicts a boy - you heard it here first LOL)