What a weekend! Wheeeewww! I was so ready to go to work to have a break! LOL I had five kids almost all weekend and boy was I ready to go to the funny farm. A friend of mine needed me to watch her kids. I really admire people who have more than two.

I can't believe I leave on Sunday. I'm sorta dreading it - I feel bad for leaving my kids but I have to go this training as part of my job and like my dad says, it isn't going to kill them. Truth be known, maybe they'll appreciate me more. LOL They sure do take me for granted. Well, sorta. They both write me sweet notes sometimes - like today I had one from my oldest that said, "Happy Early Mother's Day. I worked really hard on your gift for Mother's Day. I hope you like it. I love you very much Mommy. Love ***". She can be so sweet sometimes. I think if she hadn't been through all that she has, that is the way she would be all of the time.

I had an appt with the family therapist on Wed. I think this is really going to help us. As I talked to her about everything I realized how much my kids have been through and how well they are doing considering. I think it will be really good for the girls to have someone to talk to who is their confidant because I think they really need it. I hope this works out.

XH left me a message on my voicemail on Fri about how he wanted to pick the girls up from school so he could get their pictures made together. I hadn't changed my message on my voicemail yet so he didn't know I wasn't in. He called again and was like why haven't you emailed me - cuz even though I blocked his email addy, I can still email him. I though about it a while and then I emailed him back the following:

I debated about responding to your voicemails because I feel like you had your chance to have a communication channel to facilitate visitations but you chose to abuse it. When you don't have to face consequences, one tends to repeat bad behaviour. However, in the best interests of Jordan and Sara, I am responding to tell you the following:

1. Call me at work one more time and I will press charges. I have already spoken with Det. *** at the *** Police department and he has a report ready and will charge you with stalking/harassment, all I have to do is say the word. In addition, the court order may be old, but it is still in effect until it is changed. Your handling of the email communication proved that you are not ready to communicate directly with me. Furthermore, if I wanted to be vindictive I would have already pressed charges. I don't wish you any ill, but I will not be treated with disrespect by you or anyone else. I've learned my lesson - we teach people how to treat us. I realize in the past I taught you that I could be treated like a doormat, but I'm not that person anymore. You treat me with respect and I'll do the same.

2. Plan in advance. It is very inconsiderate to call on the day you want to change things and expect plans to be changed/made to accomodate you.

3.*** is not feeling well so pictures probably would not be a good idea. Therefore, today is not a good day to pick them up from school.

4. *** has a soccer game at 9 in the morning at the *** field. Directions can be found on their site as well as the complete schedule. http://**************** if she ends up coming for your visit - right now she is not feeling well.

Thank you.

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So, what does he do. Call and cancel visitation. I didn't care and turns out neither did the girls. It's his loss and probably better for them.

Found out today that he called my dad's and left some kind of ranting message. Dad called his home confinement officer. XH does that sometimes. Like he's in grade school tattling on me. He is so immature. Sometimes I can't believe I'm finally free of him - I guess truth be told I should thank my cousin, but I just can't bring myself to do that because what she did was wrong.

I think things are really starting to come together for me. I knew living on my own was what I needed and I was right. XBF is really sad about it, but like I told him, he needs to move on. I printed out a bunch of stuff from that site getting past your past and told him to read it, learn it, live it. He wasn't too impressed LOL