something my husband said to me last night really got to me, which was, "Is this about how long your other relationships have lasted? Three years is your limit?" and you know what, I think he's right. How said is that...actually I think I get disillusioned after about two and it takes me another year to get the courage to stand up for my convictions...

We had a really bad argument last night over...a Prius. Funny huh? Yeah, I want to buy a Prius to save on gas and he wants me to keep my Nissan Xterra. If he had valid reasons, I wouldn't have a problem with this decision, but his reasons are...he's going to pay it off this winter and it has a good drivetrain and it's a 4x4. My reasons are: savings on gas approx. $3700 a year and that is probably more because I'm pretty sure I drive more than 20000 miles a year (every car I've ever owned usually has about 25000 a year), the car has less miles (50000 vs 59000), I'll owe less on it if I sell my Nissan for 16000 or more and pay 15000 for the Prius, I love the inside of it, I admit the outside leaves something to be desired but I'll be the one driving it, it has front wheel drive which goes good in the snow). Basically he said he had line item veto and I was like, uh no you don't. I explained to him that I'm going to give you another opportunity to rephrase that because I'm telling you that I will not live in a dictatorship and he chose not to utilize that opportunity and we proceeded from there to I want a divorce basically. He brought it up and I said unless things change, yes that is where we are headed. There was a lot more that went down in this conversation, but basically that is where we are at...I'm really sad but also really mad. Like I told him, I will not be treated like a child, either this is partnership or it don't exist. I actually was willing to aquiese on the whole issue, but since he won't say that he's not large and in charge, then he can be king of this castle alone as far as I'm concerned. I feel totally disrespected and I'm NOT having it. He gave me all kinds of guilt trips about tearing up another family blah blah blah and I do feel bad but I WILL NOT live my life under someone's autocracy PERIOD. There were a lot of other things that also were discussed in addition to the Prius that were not addressed to my satisfaction and so I guess him feeling like he's king is more important that our relationship/family. I'm just tired of feeling like I can't make decisions on my own. He never worries about it because I'm not like him...I don't second guess him or over rule everything he says to the kids or whatever...