Vacay was just what the doctor ordered for the fam - the girls had five whole days of my undivided attention. We had a great time. I think the thing they enjoyed the most though was pushing me in the pool with my clothes on - or maybe the picture of me when we came down the hill on the log flume ride where I look like I'm taking a shit right in the log LOL. Yes, I am a tad afraid of heights, but I still ride the rides, that's how I roll (kicking and screaming - no not really but on the inside!).

NG was definitely different from XBF because he didn't call excessively, which I appreciated. XBF used to wear me out - it was like he thought if he didn't talk to me at least every two hours I was going to run off with the next guy that came into my orbit or something.

My mom is really freaking me out. She is starting to become my step-father. She treats her bf like my stepdad treated her and she is also very touchy. It's so weird - it's like she's become possessed by him. I guess living with that so long rubs off or something. We talked about it today and she talked about how damaged she was by my stepdad, which is a big admission for her. I think she may finally be getting out from under his thumb after he's been dead for almost 2 years. It's amazing the control he had over her even in death. She also admitted that she sees that she acts like him too so I think there is hope for her.

I can't remember who's blog I was reading where they talked about how they just go through men. They are happy for a while and then get restless - that's me in a nutshell. I think they call it a love addict or something...you always want that high you get in the beginning of a relationship and after it's gone you move on to the next one. I think that is part of my problem. The other part, I'm not sure about. I think I like the chase and then once they are "conquered" I'm done. Isn't that awful, but I really do think it's my problem. Not sure what to do about it.